You are such an inspiration. I really really admire your strong spirit and determination to overcome any difficulties that come your way. You have a fantastic attitude for recovery and are so so loved. You are the definition of warrior :)
Thank you lovely 💕
Things have been going ‘okay’. My mood hadn’t been great but I’m trying my best because my family deserves a good summer.
This morning I was looking through my dad’s scrap file and I found all the letters I sent him while I was inpatient along with cinema tickets from movies that we’ve been to together and some of my old school work that he liked. I was so touched that he’s kept it all! It was also really interesting reading the letters that I had sent him last year. In one of them I was talking about hopefully getting off 2:1 transfers and getting my ng tube out. It made me realise how far I’ve come in a year even if I feel a bit down now.
🚫TW- I’ve had one especially hard day so far this summer which marked 1 year since I tried to take my life. I had some awful thoughts and I was terrified but my mum realised why I’d find that day hard and we kept busy and had a family trip to Madame Tussaud’s! I have to admit that since becoming a healthy weight again I have been struggling to eat ‘high’ calorie foods, but i’m much better at doing this than before I had done minnie maud. I’ve had a few questions about minnie maud actually so I’ll explain now. Two of the reasons I stopped mm was because my mum found it too hard getting me to eat minimums and I was not copping with eating 3000 calories without over-exercising to compensate.🚫 Minnie maud helped me a lot too though. I ate so many foods and did so many things that I never thought I’d be able to do again, it also gradually brought me back up to a healthy weight. I in no way whatsoever regret doing it because it really helped me with my thoughts around food. If you’re thinking about taking the leap and doing minnie maud, do it!
My cousins are arriving in Hong Kong tonight which will make things harder and more stressful but I’ll have to make it work!
Omg you look stunning now!!! Keep up the good work:)
Thank you 💗
Mark Houlahan (via h-o-r-n-g-r-y)
Just a reminder that less does not equal healthy.
The low-calorie option is not necessarily the healthiest. Your body needs calories. Calories give us life. Calories are not bad.
For your period could it be that maybe naturally you weren't going to get it till you were older and then your anorexia has pushed the age back even further , I was 15 when I got mine (I didn't develop anorexia till I was 18 so it wasn't due to that , which prevented it) maybe your just naturally a later bloomer ?
I was quite early with everything else so I don’t see why my period would be later but I do know what you mean!
When you say you have never had your period, do you mean never, or since anorexia? Will you get it? Maybe that is an indication that though that weight maybe be "healthy" it isn't healthy for you.
I mean never. I’ve never had it before! My doctors don’t seem too worried and are ‘happy’ with my weight :|
First few days in Hong Kong! It’s always really strange being back at home with my whole family and dogs. It does make my recovery a lot harder but it’s good to have a big challenge now and then, right? My mum has changed my intake a bit to make it slightly easier but I think the plan is to change it back when we get back to England.
When we first landed I panicked because I haven’t been in Hong Kong at a healthy weight in a very long time; I haven’t actually seen any of my friends yet but I’m sure everything will be fine (well hopefully!) Hope you’re all having a lovely summer, stay strong 💕